Amanda, remembering my Dad (Robert Smith, age 57) who died August 15, 2007 in a farming accident. Jen, remembering & cherishing my aunt (Katherine Johanson, age 48), lost June 5, 2009 to breast cancer and my grandma (Marion Finnegan), lost June 21, 2006, also to cancer. Lisa, remembering my loving and supportive mother, Nettie Hartman, who died on January 31, 2005 from cancer and my dear friend, Cheryl Holzman, who died on April 14, 2008, also from cancer. I miss them both, each and every day. My world just isn't the same without them. Marti, remembering my beautiful Grandson Quincey who died 5 days after his birth in 2005; and my Grandmother, Genevieve, who lived for 97 wonderful years. Sherry, remembering my dad, Bert Fukuda (died Aug 1998) and my mother-in-law, Billie Cartwright (passed Sept 2008). Stacey, remembering my Daddy (Doug Douglass, age 64) who passed away on May 30, 2007, six weeks after being diagnosed with liver cancer.
Tania, remembering Sue Ann Werner (mom, age 50) who died July 19, 2007 suddenly and very unexpectedly from cardiac arrest.
This was the most difficult challenge for me yet. I didn't even want to think about it at first, then my mind starting swirling with too many ideas. Finally I got to thinking about the page, putting the embellishments but not the journaling on, and finally just facing it and getting it done. : ) Now that's it done, I'm glad I got my feelings down.
Journaling reads:
I talk to you in my head, in my dreams, and even out loud. What I’d really like to do though, is to be able to talk to you on the phone or in person, like we used to. I ache to be able to pick up the phone and hear your voice on the other end. I want to be able to open my front door and see you standing there with a smile on your face, eager to play with Alexa. I have so many questions I never had the chance to ask you and now I never will. I wish I could ask you why I stopped dancing. I wish we could talk about the challenges I face as a mother. How did you do it with four girls? I want to know how you felt after Grammy died. Why didn’t I ask? Why didn’t I realize what a hole her passing would have left in your life. I want to call you up to ask if you’d like to explore the area with me and find some bakeries to try. It was always about the food. I wish Alexa could sleep over at your house. I wish she could call you right now to see if you would like to buy some Girl Scout cookies. So many wishes, not enough answers...
Reader Comments (3)
This is beautiful, Lisa ... I find myself asking so many questions that I wish I had asked when I had the chance, too. (((hugs)))
Oh, Lisa! This is beautiful. The journaling touched my heart. I love the colors you used and that photo is absolutely priceless.
What a wonderful layout! Your journaling is so touching. I love all your embellies! They just make this layout scream Mom.