"I Miss You" by Stacey
Thursday, October 22, 2009 at 6:00AM Here's Stacey:
I thought about my approach to this challenge for two weeks. I kept thinking about the night my dad died and how I didn’t make it to the hospital before he died. I was going to do my layout about that night and that conversation I didn’t get to have with him. Then I realized that I’m not sure I would have wanted to have it!
So then I began thinking about what I’d say if I could talk to him right now. I can’t get past “I miss you.” So there’s my conversation. When I say it to him in my head, I can hear his voice (I’m so thankful I can remember it so clearly) answering me. This is enough for me for now.
My journaling:
Me: Dad, I miss you so much.
Him: I miss you, too, Pooh.
What would I say if I could talk to him now? This is as far as I can get in the conversation. “I miss you so much.” I think I could read it a hundred times and still cry after the second line in our imaginary conversation. I don’t have anything to add. Maybe it’s all that really needs to be said.
I have been angry because I didn’t get to say goodbye to him. He died before I got to the hospital. But what would I have said then? Maybe just, “I’ll miss you so much”? I really don’t know. I’ve had two years to think about it now, and I still am not sure. Not getting to say goodbye may have been a blessing in disguise. Would I want that memory? I’m not sure about that either.
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Don't forget to link us up to your own creations for this challenge under theoriginal challenge post by October 25 for your chance to win an October kit from Scrapbooking From the Inside Out, okay? Okay. :)
Reader Comments (6)
This is a beautiful layout! I love the look of it and understand not knowing what the conversation would be.
I love the simplicity of your layout ... and I completely understand.
Wow. I love this, Stacey! I feel inspired to do another layout about what I would have said if I'd been able to get to my dad sooner...about that actual day. I'd actually forgotten that I'd wanted to document those very moments and now know just how I want to go about it. Thanks!
Beautiful LO, Stacey! Sometimes there are so many words, that there are no words. Does that make sense?
I want to say thanks to each of you for creating this space. My mom passed on Feb 15th, unexpectedly. I have not been able to create a layout to her. I am not ready .... but seeing all of your work here helps me so much
Stacey, I totally understand what you are saying, I am in the same position. Mum found out about the cancer on the Thurs and we were told it would be months but Sat night she slipped into a coma and died on the Monday night, we saw her on the sun and Mon but didn't talk about her dying, so I never really said goodbye - and you know what I think you are right I don't know that that would have been a conversation I would want to have. Sorry I am waffling! Thank you for your LO xxx