"Today I Feel" by Amanda
Wednesday, September 2, 2009 at 6:00AM I'll get things started for our contributor showcases this time around. :) This layout is the first one I did after my dad died. I finished it three weeks after that fateful day. Until that point, I'd been surrounded by family and out of my own home, so it all came kind of crashing in around me when I was finally home and back to my "normal" routine.
I felt so mixed up and confused and frustrated and finally decided to just write it all down. When I did, and then made it into this layout, it was amazing to me how much better I felt simply for acknowledging my feelings. Don't get me wrong, I still felt all the things I'd listed. But. Somehow, accepting that I felt all mixed up helped. I didn't have to try to store all my feelings away or try to make sense of them...I could just have them.
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(Click on the layout image to enlarge. I think that makes it large enough to read the journaling. Incidentally, it was still months after this layout before I scrapbooked another.)
(Okay, details time...don't forget that your own projects need to be linked up under the original challenge post. To be eligible for the awesome Ormolu prize, you need to link us up by September 10th.)
Reader Comments (5)
How very brave of you to share this - I remember when you lost your dad, and it was a reminder to hug my own a little tighter. And I had to tell you what just popped into my head: it's my brother's birthday. I have to call him. {hugs}
What a great way to record your feelings, Amanda! I can relate to the turmoil and constant stream of feelings and questions.
I love this LO - it truly documents the mix of emotions that losing a loved one brings. So glad you shared this with us!
Thank you for sharing this. I have had so many of the same feelings after losing my father this year. Especially the disappointment that there don't seem to be in any current pictures of just he and I together.
Oh, I feel so many of those feelings and I also regret not having recent pictures of me and my mother together. I wish i could think of my mother without crying and feeling like I'm smothering.